Life is a Diaper

No check in the mail

I've spent a large part of tonight reading blogs, playing games, and just looking for something to do online (I have no life). For some reason, I got the urge to check the child support website to see if by some miracle Wayne has paid any child support recently. I knew better than to go there. I knew he hadn't paid anything. He hasn't dished out one red cent for them in almost 8 months, and for 6 months before that he only paid a quarter of what he was supposed to. So, now that I'm thinking about it, I'm extremely pissed off. Why can't he just get off his dead ass and help me support these kids? He had just as much to do with making them as I did.

We were supposed to be in court last month over child support, but I had it rescheduled. He had a motorcycle accident the week before our court date (He was riding a motorcycle which he knew had no brakes, so don't feel sorry for him), and was still in the hospital the day before. I didn't want to sit in court all day only to have it postponed because he wasn't there, so I explained the situation, and they agreed to postpone it. I didn't realize that they would set the date for December 17th. He'll be over a year behind by then.

He doesn't even want to see the girls anymore, either. The last time he called was the day after his accident. Even then we hadn't heard from him in over 2 months. Gracie misses him terribly. She constantly asks me to take her to see him, but since I have no earthly idea how to get in touch with him, I can't. She knows that he was hurt (thanks to my cousins kids who actually saw his accident), and she's scared for him. The other day she asked me if he was dead. One of these days she's going to start thinking about him and ask me why he doesn't love her anymore. What am I going to tell her then?

As for Arien, well, she doesn't even know she has a daddy. She's 18 months old, and she's only seen him a handfull of times. She went from being the baby that he wanted so badly that he had to have right then, to being nothing to him. When he actually does call, he never asks about Arien. I don't see how he can ignore such a beautiful little girl, but he acts like she doesn't even exist. At least he does pay some attention to Gracie every now and then.

Bah. I've upset myself enough for one night. I'm not even going to bother with all the other stuff I was going to write about him. He's not worth wasting anymore time on when I could be sleeping.

Help me please!

I'll glady give $20 and my undying grattitude to someone who will sneak up on me and knock out all the teeth on the left side of my mouth. You'll have to sneak up on me, though, because if I see it coming I'll chicken out.

I've had the world's worst toothache for the past four days. I've been eating hydros like candy, but even they aren't helping much anymore. I don't know what I'm going to do about it. I don't have dental insurance, and I can't afford to go to the dentist, so there's nothing for me to do but sit here and hurt.

This sucks.