a very uncomfortable place

i'm not as hungry as i thought i was

i know, i have the stupidest titles. but hey, it's my blog. i have killed all my others. i have been reading the ultimate hitchhiker's guide, and i'm still on the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy. matt wants me to finish it quick so he can start on it. heh. i like reading through other people's blogs. i have my favorites as well. i am craving some powdered donuts! i haven't had some in a while. man i miss my pictures! i have got to buy a cord if i can't find mine. i'm going to the kodak website to find out how much it will be to replace it. man lately all my posts have been bs posts. oh well. without my pictures i cannot show you guys my life. of course who reads this anyway? maybe i need to make some friends. i know paula is out there on these blogs somewhere...anyway, i'm going to get off of here and see about a cord. and read some more hitchhiker's guide.

short, yet satisfying

i do wish i could find the cord to my digital camera. i have such cute pictures of my serendipity. my birthday is soon. too soon. tomorrow night will be spent at jonathan's parent's house. fun fun. school starts very soon. going on tuesdays and thursdays now. more time at work. even if i do complain about work. i used to enjoy my job so much. and i had a talk with "the boss lady" today. she knows what is going on. hmmm..bed calls me now. night peoples.

i think i quit

seven people in a year have quit. gee, don't you think something is wrong? we have told them what is wrong, and they just don't listen. people are leaving animals off the treatment sheet and no one is doing a thing about it. not ever getting lunches, or getting them so late. our evaluations haven't been done in so long. all the receptionists make more money though we do more. i don't think i can live off of $7 an hour anymore. so many things i can't just name them. and they won't listen! i am going to start writing things down, like shasta is doing. i am just so tired now...i used to love my job...it has just gotten so much worse. and i don't know if i can wait this out. i am just so stressed out, and we have 8 surgeries to do thursday, and one of them is going to take 4 hours. am i selfish?

a post about nothing

everything is unclever and insignificant. everything is dull, banal, boring. everything is black and white. everything is nothing. nothing is colorful. nothing is radiant, fun, exciting. nothing is witty and noteworthy.

life is everything and nothing.

i'm already out of budget at work. i forgot to vote for employee of the month, though i wouldn't know who to vote for. that just proves that i can't think of anyone who has been exceptional at work. maybe i'll vote for one of the receptionists. michelle. she seems like a good choice. now i'll just try not to think about how i'm never employee of the month. my fault. i make myself invisible. so no complaining. i think everyone is about ready to quit, which scares me, because, even though i'm not as happy as i could be, i feel i would be left quite alone. i think i am the only one not planning on leaving soon. the need for money is a bane to my existance. there is a dog at work in renal failure, and it does not look to good for him. but hey, some people will do anything to keep their beloved pets alive. i may say that i'll know when the time comes, but i bet i'd be singing a different tune when it does. okay, i'm going to head to bed now. not much else for me to say really. night dear constant readers (the few of you there are...)

long haired pug? PUG REVOLUTION!

things are better in my household. serendipity is fine, has not vomited in a while. matt is wonderful. i want this shirt:

and i have never seen a long haired pug before.
i need to make more friends...

i'm sorry

i meant to come once i had news of my father, yet i've had to study. i got a b in psychology, thus i am happy. about my dear daddy, he's fine. echo came back normal, no fluid, no enlarged tissue. we still do not know what caused the inflammation. but he's fine. so i shall go on. i am extremely tired. serendipity kept me up all night vomiting. i hope she is alright. she hasn't eaten anything. i'm going to take her to work with me tomorrow i think. oh well, i'll just take her to watch her. mike kelley is here right now with his two year old son. the child seems to like serendipity.
well they have left now. they were here forever. anyway, i think after the last episode of hitchhikers guide to the galaxy is over i am going to bed. it's almost over.

fear part two

mom called. dad was on the line too. he is at erlanger, and he said those beds are created to be uncomfortable as hell. i didn't know what to say about anything. so i talked about walking to the pop machine. and the saint bernard down the street. i find it difficult to talk about where he is to him i suppose. any way, mom is going to pick me up and we are going to visit him. he asked how far away i am from it, i told him not too far. i mean i live right off 27. downtown is a stones throw away. i guess he acts as if it isn't a big deal it won't be a big deal. maybe it isn't a big deal. but he is still in the hospital and i am still scared out of my wits, i am afraid. and now it is raining. he is only going to be there 23 hours, and that was when she called me earlier, so....tomorrow he should be able to go home. i don't think they've done that test yet, but i shall find out once i get there. now if you will excuse me, i suppose i should change into something other than spiderman pj pants and this annoyingly yellow shirt. i'll keep whatever readers i have posted as i recieve the news.

new fears put into my life

my father is in the hospital. my father is in the hospital. chest pains. now i am thinking about this, though probably not too clearly. today is not the day for thinking clearly. he must be in erlanger since mom mentioned trevor, my uncle that works at erlanger. they were in the emergency room all night last night, and now he is in admitting. he's fine, momma says. she didn't call me because she didn't want me to worry. but worry i suppose i will. i think she is a bit worried too. they suspect the tissue around his heart is inflammed. they gave him some antinflammatories last night and he's feeling better. mom said he was scared last night, and now he just wants to go home. he has one last test, an echo, which will test to see if there is fluid around his heart. that could cause more problems. it may even be the reason the tissue is inflammed. this scares me quite a bit. more so than that. i mean he is quite young. he is only 41. i have such a head ache. i am about to walk to the coke machine at the end of our block. it'll give me some fresh air. serendipity would enjoy the walk too. i have to get this out of my mind. just for now. i have celly if anyone wants to talk to me.