Don't blink.

Rollerblading Monet

I walk in the art building tonight, and a friend of mine, adam, right off the bat says "someone had a good vacation!"
I think its a mixture of relieved stress and emotional/spiritual peace.
I feel like I've learned a valuable lesson: the best way to ease the pangs of jealousy or sadness is to keep moving. by that i mean, do something that you enjoy, something that you've found that makes you happy whenever you do it.

Its important for me to make this an accomplishment or something that is achieved. For me, getting outside and blading has proved time and time again to help me in such a way. Its amazing how a simple physical activity can relieve such stress. I guess I'd consider myself a high strung person in generalized terms. But most of that stress is internal, and definately something I push upon myself.
I try the hardest and the best I can at things and if something isnt working out... I find myself reworking the situation in a positive light. I am a positive person. I can't stand negative people. I simply can't stand to be around them! They aggravate me and piss me off to no end. especially people who use negativity as a means of self pity or to gain attention.
I try to avoid those people if after several attempts to help lighten the mood or their outlook fails to make a difference.

I need to find my soulmate. I'm tired of finding everyone else's.

random comments before I edited:
To be able to just relax in that person's presence..as in, the two of us sitting, relaxing and not feeling the need to always go out and do something. not to be so pressured to be active every single minute of every day. Some moments are best when all is still. At the same time, my person (this person) has to be able to jump up at a moments notice and commit to doing some sort of mutual activity.
Again though, everyone needs moments of patient solitude.
They have to appreciate my need for expression.. an artist's cry of existence.
I must stop here. so many things. I could get lost in my words of description...

This is one of my favourite photographs.