Mad Snot

The Fallout

Hey well today sucked... I slept pretty late and took Brandon to work and then I ran around with Kate... I bought make-up... heh... I can be a girl, nice to know sometimes... Brandon called right before dinner to tell me that instead of getting off at 11, he was getting off at 730... I wasn't exactly thrilled with this... You've kind-of had to be around lately to know the whole story... But basically it's a relationship that wasn't so much with the working and even though I care about Brandon a lot he was driving me nuts and constantly being around was driving me batty... So anyway, Dennis called right after dinner to see if we wanted to go bowling... He said that Chris might come up there... Kate and I wanted to go but I didn't really want Brandon to go... And the thing with Chris is weird... I mean it's not a thing, but it could be a thing and the two of them in the same place is not a happy thing even though Brandon doesn't know... Anyway... I didn't think Brandon would want to go due to the whole working his ass off thing... But of course, he did... He was in a shitty mood when I picked him up from work and that just made me even more upset... So Kate and I got ready... I put on make-up and tight jeans and fixed my hair and basically acted like a girl, which I think irked Brandon a bit... So he decides he's gonna be in a great mood and switching gears like that just doesn't work with me... Especially when you force me to talk to you when I'm upset and then I can't even freaking pay you to talk when you tell me that you're depressed, it just doesn't so much work... Anyway, all the way to the bowling alley on Ringgold rd. we were okay... Then in the bowling alley I'm not happy and he knows and he asks for some of his money so he can go buy beer, ya that's not good... I said no, we fought, in the middle of the bowling alley and ended up breaking up in the middle of the bowling alley... Not fun... So all the way back to my house we are screaming and fighting and he is beating himself up... He pretty much went fucking psycho... So he stayed here and kate and I left again... Eventually I guess he calmed down after some nutty episodes and some veiled threats he made on his own life, but whatever... So I agreed to meet him at Waffle House and he was fine... Like perfectly fine... Which is really fucking weird... But whatever... and he's working which I thought was kind-of weird cause he's working there from 11pm-6am and tomorrow he works 1pm-9pm and then 10pm-6am and then back at work at 11am... Now I know that two jobs is tiring and people need money but jesus-h-christ... so anyway... right now we're going to try and be friends I think and he's going to stay here until he can get the money to get his own place and just ahh! I mean, it's a relief kind-of because I wasn't happy and I didn't want to be with him it's just weird... and there is no way this entry can do the fights justice... but trust me, you wouldn't want to understand anyway... but ya... needless to say i'm tired... so i'm gonna go for now and maybe i'll update tomorrow... brandon's trying to get on thirds at waffle so i really won't be able to go in there hardly ever, but oh well... we'll see....