It's about life and how it sucks... Always... It's like I'm stuck in this crazy swirling vortex of crap, that I somehow manage to get my own self into... God knows how really... I mean I could probably figure it out, but that's a lot more thought, time and digging than I have the energy for now. At this point I don't know if I'll ever have the energy for it... I think I pissed Kate off tonight... I didn't mean to... I wasn't trying to... It's just that everybody sees things differently and handles them differently... And maybe I do care about people too much, or maybe it's just that I care about some people too much because there isn't anyone else to care about them, or because I don't have that many people to care about... I mean I care about a shit-ton of people, but for some reason most of them aren't ever around... Maybe because of the ones I care about too much or maybe because they didn't like how much I cared about them... Everything is starting to look like a swirling votex of crap right now... I could probably interject a really cool quote right here, but again with the having to use the brain and the lack of energy needed to do it... Blah... I just want everything to be normal, but it's been so long that I'm not sure I even know what normal is anymore... Maybe nothing was ever normal... Maybe... That's a word I use too much... And considering how damn much I hate that word I think I use it entirely too much... Okay, this is making my head hurt so I'm gonna go... Besides, it's not like anybody can help... And even if they could it's not like anybody reads this damn thing anymore... Maybe I should just give up like everybody else does...
Posted by leah at March 2, 2004 01:22 AM | TrackBackI hear you, and people do read, you have some good stuff in there. It's good not to be content with life, cause we are called not to be living life as if this is it. I feel the same way, the vortex, normal, will I ever be normal again. I wish and pray for you to find the peace you hope and need to find.. fellow struggler. Brian
Posted by: Brian at March 2, 2004 07:42 AMNormal is just a word. You can't apply it to real life. It only works in math and science.
However, the swirling vortex of fecal matter is a very true and very real concept. In fact, I think it's a constant cosmic normal that the swirling vortex of crap must exist. It's a hard theory to prove because of its intangibleness. I believe it only exists in a parallel universe but picks several random points and places in time to cross between the two universes and wreak havoc.
So, basically the two theories of normal and the swirling vortex of fecal matter do exist, but both are intangible so that there is no way to lasso them and harness their unstable energy for your own. Don't even try.
...and, if all else fails, tell everyone to fuck off and give you your space before you take away their normal and toss them in the swirling vortex of fecal matter. Also, as mean and sad as it sounds, sometimes it's best to just not care. It's significantly less stressful and people will eventually realize what they are missing out on.
Posted by: Garrett at March 2, 2004 09:27 AMWho else gives up?
Posted by: JosiahQ at March 2, 2004 09:48 AM"Crazy swirling vortex of crap"
Hey, maybe you should make this your blog's name! That would be soooooooooo appropriate.
Posted by: james at April 7, 2004 02:11 PM