I always wondered why "Walking Contradition" was my favourite song by Green Day
Now I feel like I'm living it.
I guess I know myself better than I thought.
I don't understand how I can be so thankful to be myself, and for everything that I have,
but wish I was someone different.
I don't understand why I can continue on with something even though I know its not good for me.
And I don't know why I keep wanting it, even after the decision has been made that I deserved better than what I was dealt.
I don't understand why I keep assuming the best out of people.
What part in me creates this need, this drive to believe that everything is a possibility? Its too dark to consider the opposite, I know this and will never give into such thought... but I assume that sleep is the closest I'll get to escape.
Unless my dreams become a confontation as well.
I hate and love the things that make me up.
Maybe its because I know nothing else, and also that I believe I am working at making myself the best I can be...
I can't be anything other than what I am meant to be... but also I can be anything I want to be!
I believe that if any assumptions are to be made, they should be the best ones.
But its always been human nature to do otherwise.