Don't blink.

Synaptical Lines

darn good day today
Went up to Cleveland to see family..
not after having a talk with a friend of mine about values. hm.
I think we did the right thing.

Really quite curious when someone I haven't talked to in ages calls me up out of the blue and says Hi, whats up! So-and-so is in town for the holidays..hey can you hook us up with some pot?
Literally, that was the first thing he said to me.
I'm like wtf?!$@#
First of all I haven't talked to this dude in forever. If he had talked to me recently at all, he would have realized I stopped smoking a long time ago.

I really should stop drinking coffee so late at night...

NO Gratuitous picture from here on out! Thank you, please drive thru.
This is kind of broken.. but that's my disclaimer.

I think its really interesting how people you are around affect the way you look at things.
Its especially influential if you respect a person for their morals and honesty.
My certain person sometimes confuses me with their choices. Its like...
It's like they have a lot of good intentions, good morals and are always honest.. but have trouble when it comes to solidifying a decision...or even making a purposeful choice...I'm not sure if that is exactly what I'm meaning to say..but it is specific depending on certain situations.. and though it isnt all the time, I still find it reoccurring enough to notice it.
It doesn't affect the respect and love I feel for this person.. but it does make me see our differences and lead me to come to my own conclusions.
Still though, I am in awe how being around good leads to goodness..
and vice versa.

We discussed that all learning in life comes from experience. As I have said before, I believe that the essences of experiences come about in the changes they makes upon you.
If you learn nothing from the changes that come about..you'll be forced to repeat the experience until you learn..
It works on a larger scale as well. (as does most everything involving a person learning about himself, and others learning to tolerate each other).
Tangent!

For example:
A four year old realizes he is big enough to throw mommy's glass vase on the floor. Of course, mommy sees this, gets angry and of course the kid's gonna get punished.
Take this and roughly compare it to Iraq becoming a larger, more industrialized nation..and experimenting with chemical weapons.
Mommy and Daddy UN are not taking the new threat well... and therefore (regardless that there is a 10000 times more political bs to insert here,) Iraq as a country got reprimanded.. and was reassured of their place in the world pecking order.

This scenario works on many scales...
You have to cross the lines before you've realized they've been crossed.
Especially if something as such has never been experienced. Up until the crossing, they were simply imaginary boundaries that were accompanied by a threat (or reward). Once they've been crossed... those lines become very, very real.
Don't touch the stove, honey. It's hot...

So anyway, we also discussed progression..which brings about the realization To help others outwardly, you will first have to help yourself inwardly.
I realized there is *no way* I can ever make someone else truly happy until I am truly happy with myself.
And that, my friends, is a scary thought.
Hasn't stopped me from trying, though. Nothing but good can come of it: refer to blog "Magenta Shock"

I personally am at the inward stage. I dont profess to being able to help others except when speaking from my own experiences--which in comparison to the broad picture are very small--having not even lived 1/4 of of my life. Sometimes that is enough, but I've always found it best to talk with many people, if possible.. and dwelling upon a subject alone before making a decision. Especially if it is about something important!

In all ways this blog is a selfish creation of mine to help my journey inwards. But I don't believe it to be selfish in a bad way. I use that term only in the sense that it is more of a self-help/reasoning tool..
as well as a catalogue of important or not so important events of my life.
People have been keeping journals for ages, but the amazing part about blogging is that it is available for all to read and gain knowledge or laughter from.
Human compassion is an amazing thing.

The effects of language never ceases to cause wonderment in me..for often times I look at things and really appreciate the fact that our advancements in communication brought such marvelous things about!
Call me a geek or easily amused.. but now after reading this.. you cant help but consider all of the language and programming it took to get these words displayed on your screen. I once took a course called Linguistic Anthropology, and the professor described language as a direct link from one person's brain to another.
How do my synapses feel? ;))

ok ok, just in case you actually read all that..:

anyone else think that looks like the ending of a Rainbow Brite cartoon??
Until next time!

Posted by BLiNK at December 23, 2003 02:14 AM | TrackBack