Yes, the title fits... I am in Florida and what am i doing? Updating my freaking blog... I am not in a very pleasent mood today, but it happens i suppose... i love vacation, i look forward to it every year but this one has been kinda long... i didn't mind stopping in savannah, savannah is awesome... and my aunts were a lot nicer than they usually are, but i don't know... this is supposed to be my time to relax, but for some reason i just can't seem to.. there's this part of me that's wants to go home and part of me that just wants to stay here... conflicted would be putting it mildly for me right now... kate is as confusing as ever... i love her so much, she's my best friend but i don't understand... three days ago she was ready to write chris off because he's pretty much a giant ass-hole, she realized she wasn't as ready as she thought, he was a dick, blah blah blah and now i call her tonight, and she's on her way back from six flags with him... i told her i would stand behind her no matter what, but i can't stand up and support her doing something that is going to get her hurt, when she knows it's going to get her hurt at some point... i can't deal with her knowing she's gonna get hurt and then being surprised when she does... and i guess it's all worse and compounded because derrick is seriously weird right now... i don't know why, but there's something going on... or maybe i'm just going nuts... oh well... whatever... i'm gonna go listen to the waves and some allman brothers, maybe that will calm me down....