"So, you're batchin' it, huh?" She said it with a smile and I know she meant well. I mean, only if you're doing a really good job at protecting your heart do you get to a certain advanced age without having someone break up with you or doing someone wrong by breaking up with them. And she and I both know what it means to look at possibility and potential and then have your road go to a different place. It was the comaraderie of heartbreak.
Yes, I have rejoined the ranks of those without significant others. Hi. I didn't forget you while I was away. Did you forget me? I've got my serial number here somewhere...and I can't remember my rank. Do I get demoted? Hope not, I want the same rights and responsibilities I had before.
So I'll take that smile for what it means and laugh as best as I can. Humor is the tabasco sauce of life, right?
I'll raise my coffee in salute to what was and what will be. I will cling to Jesus with the strength I have and the strength I don't have. (I'm holding on to faith with both hands.) And then I'll go blog about roads and conversations and serving God and think that I really should write in my journal instead of writing all these entries and not posting them.
Posted by mike at October 5, 2003 11:03 PMMike, I'm sorry. Despite the apparent status-quo of certain churches (where you may or may not attend and where I may have or may not have previously attended) that suggest one is somehow incomplete or something because they're single, that's just horribly untrue. There's nothing ultimately different between being married or not being married, in God's eyes. It's all the same. Consider that one day you and I will be as intimately united with each other as say I am with April now. Eternity levels the playing field and all that. Might not be much comfort, given that this is now and that's then. Heck...I dunno, just thinking through all this "out loud."
Posted by: JosiahQ at October 6, 2003 10:02 AMJQ--Actually, this wasn't meant to be a comment on any church and their view of married people vs. single people. I'm not feeling insecure about my social status, and I'm not trying to provoke another conversation like the one recently hosted on R's blog. I'm just trying to gracefully move back onto your list of most eligible bachelors!
And I'm trying to gracefully blog about this matter. It ain't too easy--sometimes I just want to rant.
So yeah, I'm single again. But I'm gonna put my hand to what God has called me to do today. And tomorrow.
Posted by: Jeep at October 6, 2003 10:13 AMYour sympathy for the "date-from-hell" experience I had definitely deserves some sympathy in return...Welcome back to single life. It's not a bad place to be, once the heartache dies down a bit and the pieces begin to fit again. I wish I could offer more comfort than just "you're not alone," but I'm afraid I don't have much. Hang in there.
Posted by: emily at October 6, 2003 06:13 PM