Times change, people tend to follow that too. I think change is less scarey then I used to believe... I am still frightened of change, but in theory it seems helpful but the actual implementation and being in the midst of change makes me a bit crazy... My Uncle Bill says something like 'embrace grace in the chaos' which I probably just butchered slightly but it's the idea that in order to be real and be truly loving towards and in relationship with people, there has to be a willingness to enter into chaos - the not knowing the answers or even what to say or be - just to be on the one who's at the side of those truly hurting. People are quite complex and I believe they are a lot less understandable from a point where you try to put anyone into boxes. I am the way I am in this split second, but the fact that I am a giant factory of chemical/emotion reactions means that this can change with very little outward signs...... Anyway now I have to run..... I just wanted to say hello and to share some abstract stuff about where I am... I have some family stuff going on that has made my thoughts turn towards wondering what this whole 70-100 year stint is about, called life... and 70 years really isn't for everyone, time isn't kind sometimes... peace....
Posted by whitacre at April 9, 2004 12:38 PM | TrackBack