desert sun

I guess the question comes down to "How?"
How do I know other than trying?

My head has been full, and I've been thinking a lot...
a lot about someone who has surprised me.. not because of something he did, but because of how deep my reactions have run..

I wonder, because of the thoughts that have run through my mind, what things would be like if I allowed myself to truly, deeply love again.

if I could reveal who I am and how I feel..a freedom...

As hot as the summer sun,
the heat, the waves that rise
who are you, coming into the desert of my heart?
the dry, tired sands
...
I have made myself into a cactus!

Trying, never truly believing.
But always hoping,
somehow knowing
the rains will come again.

Have you ever seen the stars in the desert?

I am frightened of Texas. Frightened by the lonliness that it brings.