It would be overwhelming to encompass all the emotions I have experienced today in this entry.
Hope, peace, love, contemplation, happiness, worry, anger, agitation,
I'll start at the beginning
Today I was in french class, and I'm very excited about this next semester. I won't let this class get me like the last one did. I'm determined to finish it.
There's a lot ahead of me.
I picked up the Nietzche book at the bookstore.. (previous entry)
I picked up my artwork from teh gallery after meeting in the hallway with some classmates.
I do not understand the way some people react, or act towards me.
Sometimes people just baffle me in their remarks. I feel like they aren't very appreciative of much. I'll explain..
One of my classmates whom I've gotten along just fine with in previous classes made a snide remark, albeit jokingly, (towards and about me) on how everyone is all happy and nice when they're drunk! But that she actually "hated" me.
I am going to say this. I am not necessarily the most liked person in the art department. It's taken me 3 years to finally open up and start to act like myself around these people. Of course, the past 3 years I wasn't even sure who I was, so maybe that has something to do with it.
I think I'm mostly misunderstood because I don't talk all that much.
Those people who actually -know- me, with whom I am friends, know that I am prone to talking my head off and generally being a goofy friend.
For some reason I think acceptance within this group is very important..
Though now that I type that, I should probably just be myself and not care what anyone else thinks.
Easier said than done...
Anyway, I just don't understand this girl and why she said the things she did because I have always been nice to her, just with every other classmate.
So often I am a scapegoat.
I only wish I was kidding.
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I was working out today. Trying not to pay attention to the tv. The tsunami relief effort has reached its way to me, and I have decided I will donate a small sum to help out.
I am disgusted by the news in general, and feel that watching too much of it is prone to make one a worry wart. I do think it is important to know what is going on in the world, but why beat yourself over the head with it over and over and over again?
I am very surprised at my reactions to relationship situations as of late.
Today I quite calmly expressed in a nutshell nearly everything that I'd thought about a certain special person, and I did it all in truth, and pure sincerity.
One of the most important things to me right now is being dynamic, while being reliable, and being able to move forward with my companions.
I feel like I'm on the verge of scaring people with some of my reactions to them.
Its ok to walk that edge, but only as long as they understand my intentions.
..I got my new Dave cd today. I know its a bit late, but.
There are two things that I know I like A LOT.
Those are, dancing to techno (dieselboy)
and dancing to Dave Matthews's music.
ahhh
I'm going to end here. I know i've been abrupt changing subjects, but I figure its cause I've got a lot on my mind... Like how to study for french, what my senior project is going to be like, how I am going to manage working out time and time for myself.
I can and can't wait until May 01.