Here it goes again. the temptation to resist this most public blog.
Its harder to be free and completely open with my thoughts..
Written and transposed:
I am currently searching for a place to rest.
I have found the failsafe, one that will always be there for me.. and that is home.
I've also been intrigued by the location of old cds of artists that I liked, music artists and even authors.
I'm rebuilding my libraries.
I had a fantastic Christmas.
completely blessed in every possible way imaginable.
I heard from my adopted soldier hottie from Iraq, took communion at my methodist church with a Jewish friend, spread smiles and happiness as much as I could.
I saw my great aunt, who is recovering swiftly from cancer treatment! She's asked me to continue to write her, which I shall certainly do, and I've had a blast unearthing precious stationary and novelty notecards.
The family was all together this Christmas,
I've discovered that I actually don't mind going to church, infact, I think I like it.
;)
I don't forsee myself becoming some jesus freak, as it was very interesting discussing the meanings of celtic and pagan and archimedial symbolism in new moon this afternoon. Its sad the reaction I got upon selecting a silver cross, the women becoming on edge--surely thinking they were in for a reprimand.
I got over the religion thing long ago....and still seem to remain pretty laid back about it.
I ended up not purchasing a cross, for one, none of them jumped out at me and two, I don't feel totally devoted to the faith enough to bear the symbol.
There are so many inner workings of Christianity that I doubt, and it leaves me longing for something more.
I sense the desire in me for some sort of representation or reminder of my faith or spirituality or what have you.
Its almost to the point where I am considering creating my own symbol.
Its funny though, that I should need a reminder, considering the wonders we go through each day, and take for granted due to necessity or impurity i know not which.
I figure our brain has to eliminate some information or else be overwhelmed!
What would the symbol mean to me? Why do I desire it so?
Speaking on concentration, that remained quite difficult at work today. I ended up having to do some of the colorist's work - lots of databases and numbers and meticulous details, not my usual fare....
I am amazed by the number of emotions that can transpire in the course of an hour.
I think I have finally settled on a new scent.
AE Aura has become my new fragrance.
I am also very excited about my new easel. I will have a studio at home.
Oh yeah, and making my own tshirts with my new screen printing kit! kazaam!!
Oh, wish me some unjinxed luck, I'm submitting to an art/design contest.