Still cooking at Applebees - not liking it but it pays the bills. I am cutting my hours though, to concentrate on some web design and other business ideas.
I really need to start spending time with some grounded intentional Christians. There are a few dudes at church that I need to make a point to get in touch with and spend time with. They're both pretty intense and I'm feeling like I'm really at a transitional place right now and need to shit or get off the pot. I could either slip into the kind of comfortable American Christianity in which one goes through the motions and knows the words or I could get intense and fired up for God. I'm tired of just going along. I need to spend more time with people who are on the right path and aren't willing to sit back and let things happen; who are willing to actively follow God and not be lax.
I've come back to a low point and need to re-evaluate. I'm drinking way too much (can't remember the last day I didn't drink (not good at all)).
Internet porn is too readily available and I fall into that trap far too often. In fact I have a pretty serious problem with that right now.
I know that I'm not living right and feel powerless to do anything. But I guess that can be a good thing where God is concerned. Our weakness is where Christ can shine through the brightest. He can redeem that which we cannot.
Posted by slaw at March 23, 2004 03:55 PM | TrackBackI hope you're still at least drinking some when you come out to California. I was hoping to do some wine tasting. ;)
Thanks for writing. It's good to see a piece of your heart.
Posted by: Lara at March 23, 2004 05:43 PM