I think the best thing about being a parent is being amazed at your own capacity for love. I had been worried about how I would be, how I would react to this new person. I heard people say, You'll never know how amazing it is til you have one of your own. I believed them, I knew they were right, I didn't know how much I would love this boy. I love Jackson so much, way more than my dog, whom I love immensely. I think it has to do with knowing that he will some day look something like me, he will run up and grab my neck hugging me, he will eventually think I'm a dork and be embarrassed of me, then hopefully after High School he'll come back around and we'll have an incredible relationship where we talk about great things and share whatever he wants to share of his life.
I also have to mention how incredibly in love with my wife I am now. I never stopped loving her, but seeing her with this kid has rekindled my affection for her in a way that I never suspected. She is incredible with him, she has taken on the challenge of Mommying so well, and I'm so incredibly proud of her and in love with her right now.
Finally, I am pleased with how close I have felt to God since Jackson has arrived. I don't ever want to forget in all the business of that morning, when we didn't know if she was in labor or not, grabbing everything we needed to go to the hospital, and stopping to pray before we left. Then that night as the three of us laid there on the hospital bed, praying together for the first time. It's a perfect time to rekindle our prayer life, and I certainly want to follow my parents example with raising me with nightly prayers and bible reading. It's so easy to take all this for granted, to say how lucky we are that delivery was relatively easy and our boy is healthy, but I give all praise, honor, and glory to God, and I hope we will all grow closer to Him as a family.
Posted by cmwillis at August 31, 2003 5:28 PM | TrackBack